RESIGNATION TO LOVE BY HAKIM ULLAH

 

                                                                                                                                  Chapter 1: Jalal’s Interest & his Mother Reaction:

Jalal bathed and came out of bathroom and singing with himself. As he came outside,he switched on the radio. When he (Jalal) open the radio, He listened a song of a singer named (Gul Zaralam) ,starts the song with these verses:

لا پاسہ واوریی وریدی غرونوں لمبیے کولیی

ما او جنان چیی لہ یو بل سرہ وعدیی کولیی

He was fond of listening songs and he also participating in dancing whenever he find the opportunity at any occasion. He was very strict to his gender rules . Jalal was very respectful to his parents and siblings..He (Jalal) further increased his radio volume. He becomes emotional with the song. AS he was drying his hair with his handkerchief, he started dancing (Attan) with his radio song. Jalal’s mother had very consistent characters .His Mother entered and saw he (Jalal) was dancing (Attaning) to the radio song.First she turned off the radio and then she said to Jalal furiously:

What you have started nonsense activities, the whole day you are listening to songs, it has been left to you in heirship from your father,he (Jalal’s father) also used to do such works in young age. Jalal’s father was also fond of dancing and listening to songs. He always joining the program and wedding ceremonies wherever it had arranged in their village. He respecting their gender rules and was the strong follower of male dominant society.

Jalal ashamed and bowed his head. He did not showed his distress and worriment and went out from home hastily. When his mother noticed that Jalal is not present in his room. She becomes very sad and thinking about her son . She entered the room and seeing that all the things in his room are placed disorderly. His mother set his items in the room and covered on the TV also. She placed the radio on its right place.And all the dispersed audios and videos CDs put in the plastic bag and it placed by the TV also.

Chapter 2: Jalal & His Friends:

Jalal friends and fellows also were very  fond of listening to songs. They also were habitual to listening songs and attending every program. All they were close friends and respecting each other. They were sharing their thoughts and feelings amongst themselves. Sometimes they were arranging programs in someone’s apartment and playing Cithaerons . Everyone of them were quite close to one another. They were participating in those wedding processions when it were celebrated with Cithaerons and songs. They enjoyed it whole heartedly because it was their job on daily basis.

But when today the friends of Jalal were meeting him, he was feeling sad and his friends were asking about but he was not telling the exact cause and problem to his friends , and he did not give them the proper answer. His friends were not leaving him and asked again and again. In the end he (Jalal) compelled and he told the problem in such words .

In my whole life only today , I was dancing with radio song in my room. In the meanwhile,          my mother entered my room and saw me dancing . Now By God, I am very in distress and sad.

His friends were very funny and joking.When their friends listened this, all of them laughed loudly,  enjoyed this moments all of them. and One of them said:

Mraa! Take it easy, it’s not so bad. In front of his mother everything can be performed. It’s not shaming. You can your thoughts and feelings with her very freely and independently, it is not a matter. Mother is a very credible personality for her offsprings.  You have not seen someone else but his mother. And mother! is the mother .

Jalal was quite sensitive man, he was out of his temper and not feeling well by such actings .

 Listening these words, Jalal tempratmen restored and he smiled.

Chapter 3: Participation in Wedding Ceremony:

Another friend said:

Jalal! There is good news to you, there is a wedding ceremony in the upper village tonight, it is a good opportunity for us to visit this ceremony and participate in. The people of that village are very fond of listening songs and arranging such program. They want to celebrate this wedding ceremony with hustle and bustle. the upper villagers have invited famous Drummers. if you want ,we all friends will go there together.  Remember! You should not make excuses. All of us will go and participate in the program which is arranged by the upper villagers that amazing and great job. We will dance,sing songs and that’s great work to make happy themselves.

When Jalal listened this, his face became red due to much excitement and happiness, and he said loudly:

Of Course! You are telling to go there tonight but I would like that we should by now, not to wait for  night. This is moments of happiness and excitement that will get from such occasion. It is my job and my hobby to attend the ceremony and listen to songs. Dancing is a very one of my favorites activities and engagements! I can not help to wait further. He questions and say when we will set out for attending this program in the upper village. The village was very beautiful I had ever seen, has an amazing weather that boost the excitement and emotions of the individuals .

Jalal went out for wedding ceremony with their friends at evening . He was sitting with the Drummers and enjoyed the program till the midnight . They felt quite well and emotional . When the Drummers , musician and the hornist ended up the program ,Jalal also take the way towards his home. Heading towards his home, he was fearing and thinking how to enter his home slithery,so that, no one could know about my coming.

When Jalal reached near to his home door, he was feeling fear because he can not dare to knock at his home door at very late night . He thinked for a long time to get enter to his home. and he very hardly climbed up to the wall and entered to his home . He walked quietly towards his room so that his father and mother could know about. It was midnight time when he reached his home. He was tired and shedding sweat of his body. He drank water and more sweat starts and shedding from his face and the whole body.

Chapter 4: Jalal & His Journey:

As he reached his room,he switched on the TV and then he started, making his bed . Suddenly, he listened and watched a song of a female singer on TV with these verses:

 

زما د مینیی نہ توبہ دہ بیا بہ نہ کڑم مینہ

د جانان مینہ عجیبہ دہ بیا بہ نہ کڑم مینہ

 

 

When Jalal listened the female singer song on TV, he left making his bed and suddenly he looked at the TV screen. It was confirmed to him that the singer singing a song on TV is actually my sister. He was feeling this his disrespect and shame, that how it can be, that my sister will sing a song openly on TV channels and before other people that is unbearable for me. It is my humiliation and the voilation of our traditional norms, and rules .he perplexed and astonished . And he gazed at the face of the singer , and spoke loudly:

O Lord! What I am seeing this?

When he saw this scene on TV singing a female singer a song, he could not bear this scene. he broke the TV screen shot with a glass and with a jug one after another. The TV screen broke into pieces and fell onto the ground in his room. He was not in his temper at this time thinking that it is a dark spot on our respect ,honour. How she dare it to do so? I have no compromise on such deeds.

Jalal was  lay down on the ground in comatose for a long time in his room , but when he came out of his long comatose state , it was late dawn time. He hastily made preparation for his journey. Jalal’s parents were not knowing about his journey, as they woke up in the morning, Jalal had got out of his home and moving forward towards the city . When his mother entered into his son (Jalal) room,he was not there in the room and his TV screen broken pieces were dispersed and lying down on the floor in his room. His mother astonished and amazed shedding her tears from her eyes .She reported and informed her husband about this critical incident and situation quickly . When Jalal’s mother told her husband, he was also in distress and worriment, saying that what will happened with my son (Jalal) ?

On the other hand, Jalal reached the City in late evening and for night stay he straight went to his sister home in the city. When Jalal’s sister saw his brother (Jalal) ,she was very excited and happy She asked about her parental house from her brother. And Jalal was also giving answers what his sister asking about . She had a great respect of her brother.

His sister gave him a great respect. She made a beautiful new bed for his brother while sleeping , and she kept water cooler beside his brother bed so that, he could drink water easily if he need at night , and then she switched off his room light, to rest well till morning. After that, she said good night for his brother and went to her room. She did what she can for her brother.

When the night got over and it was morning time Jalal’s sister sent her husband to bring milk from the near shop in bazaar so that, I prepare tasteful tea for her brother. The bazaar was not near to their home. Her husband went out to bring milk wife’s brother so that we present him a quality tea before him. Her husband had not reached to his home. He was on the way coming back with milk.

Chapter 5: Jalal & His Sister Tragedy:

Jalal hit the iron while it is hot and he prepared his pistol and put ammunitions  in the pistol . His sister very  surprised , and she asked to her brother (Jalal) :

 Jalal! What are you doing with pistol?

Jalal did not give any answer to what her sister asked him and he suddenly charged straight firing through his pistol and shot his sister at the time . He did this very bravely was feeling proud of it.

When Jalal’s brother-in-law (Husband of Jalal sister) came back to his home from bazaar taking milk in his hand, seeing that his wife is fully dabbled in her blood and has been killed her. On the other hand, he see that my wife’s brother (Jalal) is no more there. Jalal had fled from home before his sister husband came. He was heading back towards his home. He felt that I have done this so that to restore my respect and integrity in our community, otherwise, it was humiliation for our whole family members in society.

 Three or four hours after happening this incident that Jalal killed his sister for the reason that why she sings songs openly on TV and before other people, the news broadcasted on famous TV channels and radio channels that:

There is a bad news, we are conveying to you people, that a very caronus female singer whose only one song has been shared until now on TV has been killed by her brother for the reason that why she has sung a song on TV channel, that is shameful for us and our dignity in our society .

The song of that female singer again channeled and share on TV:

زما د مینیی نہ توبہ دہ بیا بہ نہ کڑم مینہ

د جانان مینہ عجیبہ دہ بیا بہ نہ کڑم مینہ

AUTHOR:

 

 

                                                        

Hakim Ullah-Pakistan

Hakim Ullah, a student of BS English (4th semester) at the University of Chenab, Gujrat, has recently completed the module *Classic and Victorian Novel. As part of the course, he crafted a literary piece titled Resignation to Love. This work is a unique blend of Pashto and English, narrating a poignant tale of melancholy, longing, and love between two soulful seekers.